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The Quotes blog is back...and the link is right this time My new Rants blog is up and running
Reading: just finished Anna Karenina by Tolstoy...on to Grimm's Fairytales
Singing: starting next week...Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat
What's going on:
Sun 28th - church 10am, Matt time, Kohl's 4:30-9:30pCS
Mon 29th - Kohl's 10a-4pCS, ?
Tues 30th - Kohl's 6a-2:30pPC, Texas Roadhouse?, Joseph 6-9p, ?
Wed 31st - ?, bank meeting with Mere 4p?, Joseph 6-9p, ?
Thurs 1st - ?, Joseph 6-9p, ?
Fri 2nd - ?
Sat 3rd - ?, Kohl's 2-8:30pCS, ?
Sun 4th - Church 10:30a, ?
Mon 5th - Kohl's 6a-2:30pPC, ?, Joseph 7:30-10p, ?
Tues 6th - ?, Joseph 6:30-9, ?
Wed 7th - Kohl's 9a-4pCS, ?, Joseph 8-10p, ?
Thurs 8th - Kohl's 10a-5pCS, ? Joseph 8-10p, ?
Fri 9th - ?, Kohl's 5:30-10:30POS
Sat 10th - ?, Kohl's 2-10:30CS
Poems (the select few I'm OK with sharing): 9/16/04, excerpts fromIt's taking away my voice and leaving my mind blank. I want to disappear, Bury my face in my hands and sink through the floor, Curl into a ball and hide. I want to pray... My mind refuses to bend to my will. I want to reach for my Book... My feet stick to the floor. I want to cry out, plead for help... My jaw is set... 2/2/04Come back, Come back! My wounds are not so deep That I'd turn you away When you bleed too. You're drifting - Drifting away from me. I've never been a strong swimmer. Currents I can't fight take us, Pulling us apart. These ripples in our lives Undermine the foundation That kept us close, Slowly eating it out from underneath Our shaking legs. My friends, Don't let us end In this tide of heartache and uncertainty. Too much past is behind us To throw the future away Without a fight. 12/29/03Think of your world As a big glass wall... What would you do When it crashes down? The pieces are sharp, They make you bleed, And it mingles with the tears you shed As you realize how long it will take To rebuild the wall, And how much blood will fall Upon your shattered future. 12/4/03Standing on a Fencepost in my head, I feel my feet slip And my body sway. The divide I straddle Keeps sun-bright meadow From chill black depths. Will something push me over... Pull me down? When this precarious balance fails, Where will I land? I don't want to gasp for each breath, Treading water Above fathomless darkness, A struggling speck In a foaming sea. 11/6/03 2:15amNot marching to the beat of any drum, But walking softly as an orchestra resonates in a glowing chamber. At times I pause And sing. Often the key is minor and my voice soft, But when the music swells, I can plant my feet and proclaim a song of joy. 9/21/03 1amCurled in a ball, I hug my knees to my chest And sit alone on an island, Watching the faces float past In a vast tide around me. 9/8/03The beauty rips the tears from your eyes And flings them callously aside. Perfect image before your eyes does not waver, Grows only fuller in the waning light. Only a single ray pierces the darkness inside. You wish it would widen and fill you, But the oppressive black crowds it, Thick, Inky; The light struggles. Will it win... Or will the tears return to you this night?
8/16/03
Fragile,
Alone,
In dappled shade beneath a tree.
Vulnerable,
I looked for solitude
And found Grace.
I poured out my pain -
You poured out Your Love
As You poured out Your blood long ago
For me.
I wept and you filled my haunted eyes
With Joy.
8/2/03 12:20am
Fall again.
Drifting away from me...
Black tears flow slowly,
Mingling with the depths I stand watch over,
Fervently searching for signs of life,
Hating the ripples -
Illusory shadows of what once was you.
The shoreline is bleak when I must stand alone,
Chilled,
Clinging to shadows,
Waiting for another day.
6/28/03
Lost sight of the sun.
Strain feverishly towards the horizon,
Only to find no trace of light.
It will return.
The deluge which seems to persist indefinitely in beating down and darkening the sky
Will end.
To face into the wind whilst a cold rain penetrates
Grows tiresome,
Disheartening.
Chill mist,
Torrent
As the thunderhead builds and blackens the sky.
But the darkest clouds,
Most ferocious storms,
Run their course and cease.
The twilight world will recede and briliance burst forth,
Flooding the path trod for so long stumbling in darkness,
Head bowed,
Eyes stinging from the onslaught,
With light again.
Look up
And catch the bright arc of color
Above the drenched aftermath,
And watch the path dry.
Walk with springing step on firm ground
Where once dark pools obstructed the path.
The sun will shine again.
3/31/03
Images,
Burned in the back of my mind,
Beautiful,
Snapshots of nature at its best,
Glorious creations.
My fingers itch and I reach for the pencil.
But its strokes are timid where they should be bold
And stark where they should be soft.
I look at the 'finished work' and sigh.
My own incompetence serves as preventative.
The lines on the paper, smudged and blurred,
Fail to do justice.
The snapshots are missing some intangible thing
A photographer worthy of their taking would have captured.
3/27/03
I see myself as from afar,
Standing at the edge
As I scan the horizon.
Clouds roll in
But I stand,
Feet planted,
Face upturned,
Ready to meet the coming storm.
Waves begin to crash...
I feel them rumbling through my feet,
Shaking every tense muscle in my body
Up through the ancient rock of the precipice
Where I stand,
Waiting.
I will rejoice in the rain
Though it may sting my face,
Plaster my sodden clothing to my shivering body;
It is necessary,
Though the wind and rain may sap my strength,
I will not leave my ledge,
For it is safe,
And the storm will end.
The sun will shine and I will rest contently,
Watching the waes gently lap,
Crumbling the damp earth beneath my fingers,
And smiling at the promise the world holds.
3/18/03
I bow my head
And allow the music to carry my thoughts to God.
Then I know Peace.
The creases upon my brow smooth
As I slowly lift my head
And smile,
Eyes closed,
Alone with my prayer
Except for ht Lord,
Who hears me.
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Sunday, May 28, 2006
Gettin in the swing of summer...
I've been sleeping in almost every day and it's spectacular. I went from feeling finally well-rested to feeling lazy in about a week. But what, you might ask, have I been up to beside sleeping?
Well....unfortunately for the few of you who still check back here every so often, I don't get to use the computer terribly often because I'm at my parents house and have two siblings who tend to monopolize the computer. My brother glues his ass to the computer chair as often as possible and all he usually does is listen to music and use aim. Loser.
Anyway, the first week I was back (14th-20th) there was much sleeping and some working. I also got to visit my grandparents for mother's day. I drove to SP one day to see Amanda's spectacular recital...my mom came too cause it was free, she didn't have anything to do, and I didn't want to go by myself. Now she wants to see "I Love You You're Perfect Now Change". I also got to hang with Holly and Willow and I think I had a Laura day (visited a bank, looked at houses, picked up her bf's motorcycle, and ate sushi) and some quality Jess time in there too. And of course, as much Matt time as I could. That might've even been the week I dyed (well, lowlighted) Jess's hair, which turned out quite lovely if I may say so. I also got to spend a day driving to Madison with Mom and Aunt Amy to move Theresa back home. That was fun. We had some great Mexican food while we were down there....but my margarita was sorely disappointing. It was supposed to taste like sour apple and it just tasted like sour crap. No one else would drink it either. Anyway...I think I also went to Oshkosh just for fun one day to hang with Theresa....I mean, I know I did, I just can't remember if it was that week...we went canoeing with the pseudo-priest she's in love with (yeah...my cousin is in love with a guy who's in seminary right now....kinda like that TV show...). We played the chauffeur game for Aunt Amy because their van had a flat tire and hit up the outlet mall, binging on $3 shirts at Old Navy and thoroughly enjoying the Bath & Body Works outlet. Then we enjoyed some coffee talk at Starbucks until I needed to go home. I think that was all I did that week....I pulled this partially from my memory and partially from scribbled notes in my day planner.
This past week I did some more sleeping. I also bought some running shoes (with Matt's assistance...bless his patient heart) and took up jogging. I'm very out of shape and still can't breathe the greatest but I'm going to work on it slowly because I remember having once really enjoyed running. Anyway, I did get to hang with Jess again this week, which is always great. I like smart people. And babies. I did work one day in there at the service desk, and I hung out with Matt a few times....though more limited because he started at the mill and they started him on days. Orientation was like "by the way, you're starting at 5am tomorrow..." bastards. One night Holly and I rented (on Amanda's recommendation) High School Musical....which was the corniest thing I've seen in a long time, but infinitely entertaining. We missed a lovely thunderstorm though.
Last night (that would be Friday night) when I got out of work at 9:30 I kidnapped Matt and we went down to Sloshkosh to get sloshed (well...we actually didn't...but most of the others did) for Theresa's 21st birthday. We also had a break between bars (Matt and I were there for 3) for gyros. It was a lot of fun, even if Theresa and Cindy made me dance. Oh....I recommend a drink called a Dirty Girl Scout....tastes kind of like a thin mint....very good....the bartender at Molly Maguire's made me one when I told him to mix up something I hadn't tried before. Matt and I left shortly after 1am, then I headed home and to bed.
Today was relatively unexciting. I slept in...woke up with a head cold and a sore throat...did some cleaning around the house, sat in the sun for about half an hour, and worked for 7.5hrs...with Bob, Bane of my Existence. Bastard. So glad he's not closing again tomorrow. When I was driving home at 11:30 it was refreshingly cool and the sky was lit up with some spectacular heat lightning. I really wanted to go for a walk and enjoy it. Upon arriving at home, I discovered that Meredith and cousin Emily, who was visiting, also wanted to go for a walk. So we set out down the steep hill to the river. As soon as we got to the bottom of the hill it started pouring. So...we ran back up...and the other two were in flip flops. We were completely soaked by the time we got back to the house, the equivalent of maybe a block and a half away.
That's all for my update....Cheerio!
Posted at 12:44 am by icantdance
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